Listening to that Still, Small Voice

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I love working. I love staying busy, having to do lists and feeling like I have accomplished something. Maybe its because Motherhood is hard with no direct accolades. There is no "Good job, mama. You cleaned that kitchen good", or "Great job! You fed everyone today, got them all dressed and even got yourself showered and ready!". There is no paycheck, there is no vacation. There is no PTO or Sick Days. So when I get a chance to accomplish something outside of motherhood and within society, I jump at it. And most often, I jump way too soon. I jump before I know how I am going to commit. I jump in excitement. I jump for the pure thrill of saying, YES to talking to other humans besides my kids. 

About 2 years ago, I read the book, "The Best Yes" and it opened my eyes to so many things that I had no idea I was doing. At that time, I was working and running my own business. I had weddings most weekends and clients during the week. I of course was taking care of my kids, my house, the bills etc. But I was overwhelmed, stressed and just not happy. I re-evaluated life after that Book. And started to make some changes. I started saying No to the less important things and was then able to to say YES to what I wanted...but more importantly, to what God wanted me to say yes to. But whats funny is how quickly, but also how quietly, you slip back into the same patterns and behaviors if you aren't being aware and awake most of the time. Its definitely a slow fade. 

The other day after not sleeping much one night, and early wake up calls for school drop offs, a scripture popped up in my newsfeed from someone who had just shared it. 

It is vain of you to rise up early, to sit up late, to eat the bread of sorrows. For so He gives His beloved sleep.
— Psalm 127:2

Which for someone who has been studying Proverbs 31 her whole Christian walk, this contradicted what I thought it meant to be a Godly Woman. 

She seeks wool and flax, and willingly works with her hands. She is like the merchant ships, she brings her food from afar. She also rises while it is yet night, and provides food for her household...
— Proverbs 31:13-15

But I think there is a big difference between the scriptures and they don't contradict as much as I thought. Although a Godly woman is willing to sacrifice pretty much anything for her family, I think God honors "slow" and rest. I say it a lot, that life is full of season. But it is so true. And we go through seasons of busy and seasons if slow. But in all of those, it is so important to find that slow. To find that content, calmness. To savor the moment with our kids and to truly understand that life is passing us by, and we need to just be sometimes. And it is so important to sincerely prioritize our "to do" lists. I've started to ask myself, is this eternally important? Yes, we all have work and the mundane tasks. But is my attention going towards wordly things or eternal things? How is this affecting my faith, my peace and my family? 

 

What is your take on these scriptures?